Oh, Laura! I wish I could reach through the computer and give you a great big hug right now! This is a beautiful post. I think being a mom may be one of the most painful things in the world. But it's so worth the pain when you think of all the beauty and joy in being a mom! The pain just makes the rest of it all that much sweeter. I think we feel all of the anger and frustration and tears so that our children won't be burdened by them. I'd rather cry over Lily's diabetes than see her cry over it. And just remember, for as much as it all sucks, these struggles our children go through will help them grow up to be beautiful, wonderful adults, full of grace, strength, and compassion. No matter how much we'd like to take it away for them, we can't. But we can look on the good side of these things and help them to see the good side too.

What a beautifully written, HONEST account of how you feel. People who call that 'dramatic' are not i touch with their own feelings and emotions. They don't 'get' it. You DO. And this is your safe place where you can unload all of those emotions so you can be the best mom you can be to your little precious ones. You are their rock and always will be. Whatever you do to remain stable for them is JUST RIGHT. Then you joy can shine through and provide the best memories ever......

Oh, gosh, Laura, way to make me cry before I've had my coffee! :) Love your post - so true and so beautifully written. (((hugs))) to you.

Beautiful post Laura!

Nothing like a good cry in the morning. I still cry over D sometimes too. And now these other stupid things I am dealing with.

Same.

Love you, friend.

Give those kids a big hug from me!

Laura, this is so well written and so true. We only want the best for our children and when they are diagnosed with anything, it is a challenge. I still cry too, even though Andy has had diabetes for almost 6 years. Even though I know I don't have it anywhere near as bad as those families with Type 1, we still face the same challenges. Some days will be better than others, but we will always be mothers and will always cry when we can't help our children feel better. We will also cry when they are successful. You are a great mom. God bless you for all you do.

Now I'm crying. (and I'm at work too, so it's not good). ;) Right after Roxy was diagnosed a friend wrote to me and said, "You never know what you'll have to do for your children". It always stuck with me because you don't know what you'll get but you do know that no matter what you'll try to love and protect your kids with all your heart and strength.

Laura,
We special needs Moms have so much on our plates. It's good to let it all out once in awhile. I've been feeling the same way lately as Alex has other challenges which can be even more exhausting than his diabetes somedays. Im sorry you've had some bad D days. They will pass, and tomorrow is a new day. Keep smiling. You have a beautiful, contagious smile. To those people who say you're too dramatic, be sure and tell them that unless they've walked in your shoes, they should not judge. You have every right to feel the way you feel. Hugs, G

I think we're all a little dramatic when it comes to our babies - if not outwardly than inwardly...and darn it they are so worth it! I had a very stoic mother growing up and remember her just shrugging everything off, the interesting thing is that she is now the one who cries every time she sees me change Isaac's site or have to force him to have some form of sugar. This has just solidified the fact that I always knew she was sad for things inside for us but thought she needed to put on a tough front so that we wouldn't be sad...now I am much more appreciative of her honest feelings being shown, for her telling me that she talks to her coworkers about her grandsons type 1 diabetes and her other grandson's hemophilia. I am thankful that my mother has allowed herself to be open about these fears and realities. I think you are teaching your children a valuable lesson about how all emotions are valid, that showing you care sometimes comes out in many different ways such as anger, fear, happiness, laughter or even tears. I think you're a wonderful mother and I am so right there with you still crying when I know my babes hurt or carry such a heavy burden.

I sobbed last night because of D. Because of what it was doinnng to my baby.

I love this post. You said it perfectly.

F*ck anyone who critized you. I love you so much!!!

Absolutely beautiful, my friend. I still cry too. And I'm just so thankful to know I'm not alone.

We're in it together, my friend.

(I love the pictures.)

Beautiful and heartfelt post! Thanks for sharing that...while I wish we didn't feel the need to, I cry too sometimes. Glad to know we're not alone!

Amen. Amen. Amen. A mothers love cannot be easily described...unless you are Laura Houston, you described it to a tee.

A friends love can be difficult too, especially when you know the pain of anothers mother heart...really KNOW IT...and can't take it away. I know the heartache of watching your child suffer, and I wish others didn't have to endure as we have. All I can say is your children are blessed to have such an amazing woman as yourself fighting for them. All my love to you friend!

Love this post Laura! No one gets a mother's love until they are a mother...and we carry the weight of the world on our shoulders for our children...so they can live innocently and freely for the short amount of time that their growth allows. And you are a beautiful mother my friend...your children are learning how to truly love and that is what it's all about.

I couldn't agree more. We had an endo appointment today and it didn't go well. He cried and I cried on the inside. When I tried to talk to someone about it she just said well he probably had it coming. Why can't other people support rather than judging. Noone understands like a mother of a child who needs 24 monitoring, control and supervision. Take care and thanks for the post. I GET IT! Carmel

Beautiful post Laura. In fact, I was thinking of this post today as Addison sobbed hysterically and I almost did too over a site change....It hurts when our kids hurt and I still do cry too..I am sure I won't stop crying over seeing my child hurt EVER. XO.

This is beautiful! I love it! I cry with you... because it hurts. Love you!

Oh my Laura! You are just beautiful! Inside and out! I love the pictures; I love your heartfelt words. <3