Even when Nate was 1st diagnosed and I had no idea WTF I was doing I had an overwhelming desire to at least make it appear as if I knew what I was doing.  I think it is the mommy in me that wanted to make people think that everything was ok --- everything was just fine.  I've always been pretty cool and confident and I didn't want anyone to know that I was scared to death.

I even remember someone telling me a few days after Nate was diagnosed that it would become second nature and that she knew a family that had been living with type 1 for years and it was no big deal.  Wow!  I thought --- I can't wait to get to that point --- no big deal?  Second nature?

Bring it on.

Yea --- I'm here to tell ya --- 2 years and 2 months later.  That's a load of crap.  Yes, it is not quite as overwhelming as it was before but it's certainly still a big deal and it's really not that easy ----- NO MATTER HOW EASY I MAKE IT LOOK --- it's still hard.  I am just a mom --- I am NOT a pancreas.  Yea, I read the book, Think Like a Pancreas and it helped but I'm still not thinking that much like a pancreas.  That pancreas has a freaking hard job.

Does this look like I'm thinking like a damn pancreas?




It's a hard job for sure.



I encourage everyone to read this article on CNN Health - Artificial Pancreas could be 'holy grail' for type 1 diabetics.

And then sign the Artificial Pancreas Petition here, please.




This post was written as part of NHBPM – 30 health posts in 30 days: http://bit.ly/vU0g9J