Same-same on SO much of this! So glad to know that I'm not the only one that sometimes is listening to someone talking to me but somehow have no idea what they're talking about...probably too often all I'm hearing from others is the "blah, blah, blah"...I thought maybe it was just me.
And I LOVE being able to read your blog!!!!

Dang, I guess my first comment didn't go through.
Anyway, Lydia just asked me tonight leaving church why God gave her diabetes? (bc she was low and didn't want to eat and it was meltdown time) I told her he didn't and that he was watching over and protecting her.
Loved your hate and love lists. Especially glad that I stumbled onto your blog months ago. It is one of my favs! Glad you are funny and honest.

Damn, girl. You saved the best for last! I'm still up, just finished reading "The Hunger Games" because I'm waiting to see if Adam's 85 will come up on its own, or if I have to shove a juice box down his throat at 11:30pm. A day in the life, right?

Love your ramblings. Because they are MY ramblings too. I get so flustered trying to explain T1D to people that I'm sure they think I'm crazy. As in CUH-RAY-ZAY. I always just give up and say, "It's complicated." I'm sure people are tired of me bitching and moaning about it. But luckily, our d-mama group gets it.

Much love to you, sister. Hope the Houston house is feeling better soon.

Absolutely beautiful and heartfelt sister! Amen to every word. Love you, love you, love you. We will see each other through. And eventually live on that commune.

Wow what a post, Laura. You really know how to write how you feel -- and still make it a captivating read.

Amen sista! Same SAME here with me! Everything you said in this post is exactly what runs around in my own mind....especially the marriage, recalculating carbs endlessly, and the whole "god gave this to you" bull shit. True, its up to us to live the life we are given, but in no way, shape or form are people (especially children!) "given" disease!!! ((HUGS))

All true. I can't muster much more than a half ass :),
but I feel you and love you girl!

Yes, you totally still have your sense of humor! hahaha!
I totally agree with the glazed look..I'm thinking here, People!
and dinner? Ugh. Total counter and timer and TOUGH.
Thanks for keeping it real-I totally agree, and don't say it often enough! : )

Awesome post - I have absolutely loved reading your posts through #nhbpm! Your senses of humor is terrific and your ability to sum up what we're all thinking at one point or another is priceless. Give yourself a big pat on the back - you've earned it!!

Love your humor and your honesty always and forever. xo

Damn, that was good on so many levels!!

Same SAME! I'm right there with you, I HATE when people tell me God only gives you what you can handle! I HATE when people say they couldn't do what I do, but yeah, you are right, some of them couldn't. My marrige suffers, my sex life suffers (I'm so tired and I have to get up in a few hours to check BG, all I want to do is sleep! TMI? or Same Same?) My relationship with my other kids suffers, I am fat because I stress eat too, I am too tired to excercise, I HATE when I read that "getting enough sleep" helps you to lose weight. and I HATE that it is so hard for me to trust other people with Kortnie, most of all I HATE relying on a freakin' medicine and pump to keep my kid alive. And one day I went like 8 hours without checking her BG and I don't even have a Dex!

Oh and my Faith? I am clinging to the last shred of it, I feel it slowly slipping away from me, and really? I don't give a crap, I'm too tired to give a crap, I have other stuff to worry about. Same, Same!

I love this post! I love your honesty!

I HATE the D has wrecked your marriage. I hate that.

I totally believe that God didn't give our kids this disease. I do believe that He is all powerful so he COULD have taken it away... but that there's a reason why He didn't. That's just me. It's what I believe and I'm not saying it's right or wrong. We each believe that we have to so that we can get through each day, ya know?

I totally want to bolus from my iphone. It does everything else... there is NO WAY this couldn't have been figured out.

I love the pod. I also will love it more when it's smaller!

My life is consumed by my kid and diabetes. and school. And jdrf. and I'm cool with that. Pretty much.

And I TOTALLY LOVE That you said that sometimes you think "yeah, you would suck at this". Because I SO THINK THAT, TOO!

Love you my sweet, sweet friend! I hate D - but I love that it led me to people like YOU!

Totally with you on the dinner timing thing...UGH so stressful. I use to say that dinner was no longer family time before we started pumping because it was diabetes time. Now with the pump we are making our way back to family time dinner.

and completely with you on the God did not give my child diabetes too.

Laura--you are f*&C$ing funny! I love that you are so honest, too. I can't help it but I do expect people (especially close family and friends) to "get it" more that they do. It's been almost two years since dx and people who are close to us still ask the dumbest questions. They most certainly should know better by now don't you think? Pick up a copy of Diabetes for Dummies for pete's sake! And, it's true that we can handle "D" better than most people we know. It's a shame that some people can't handle it because while it's taxing emotionally and physically (no sleep!), it's not rocket science. People just have to use their brains; okay, 24/7. But, I'm preaching to the choir. :) I love your "I love" list. We love the Pod and the Dex too. Also want to be able to check BG's via smart phone or "weather station". Love your blog.

Chiming in a little late, but I LOVED READING THIS SO MUCH! I am staying up tonight to test every hour or two,and you are making me very happy. I especially am loving "all perfectly timed to be done at the same time, I'm trying to get the table set, measure and weigh Nate's food, check his blood sugar and bolus him while I am still counting the carbs in my head. That totally stresses me out. Oh and I hate that it happens every single night"

Chiming in a little late, but I LOVED READING THIS SO MUCH! I am staying up tonight to test every hour or two,and you are making me very happy. I especially am loving "all perfectly timed to be done at the same time, I'm trying to get the table set, measure and weigh Nate's food, check his blood sugar and bolus him while I am still counting the carbs in my head. That totally stresses me out. Oh and I hate that it happens every single night"